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Lost trust
Thursday, October 20, 2011 @ 12:40 AM
Well, I've graduated, yes I did. Now I'm preparing for the final battle. But some things just got in my way. Procrastination, I bet that's what everyone's trying hard to fight against with too. Its like ... the worse thing you can fight against with when you're studying, and that really sucks. Because the hard-working mode I have can only last no longer than 5 minutes. I really need motivation and determination. Save me.
Well, trust is really something that you need to build up. I've lost it. I can't even trust myself too. So what's up to me to give people a chance to prove them right? but sometimes, I found out something that I shouldn't. Primary School saying, "Say people say yourself." true, we're always saying about people, yet its contradicting. We're doing the same thing. Oh this is what human do right?
And for myself, I can't seem to improve my temper. But I know some where far far far far away, some one would love me just the way I am. I agree I am really short-tempered haha. What's wrong? Everyone is, its just the matter of how to would express it. For me, I like to be straight forward sometimes. Sorry if I pissed anyone off, probably because you pissed me off first too.
Ah so much for the ranting, I can only do so here. I know someone would be looking at this post, so HI! ^^ Good luck for those having O levels this year~ gahhh, I wanna crap much here. Since this is MY blog.
Oh man, its always 1am and I'm here blogging, ahh. I haven't really yawn you know! I'm probably too worked up. Not sure why. My day never been happy for 24/7 before Probably because life isn't perfect. You gotta agree with this! haha. And oh! Nowadays I'm so so into Zodiac! All because of twitter haha! Man, i gotta tweet less now.
Yes, things I wanna change - my attitude
- my tweeting habit
- procrastination level
- ........ not sure.
I gained haters. Or probably I'm always just dealing with people who don't like me but just pretending? oh well, my wild thoughts are coming again. S h i t, then i'll wonder and doubt and suspect and blame..... -.- Bad bad bad habit, so I'll change a few more - Reduce wild thoughts
- stop thinking too much
- Stop doubting
ah oh pretending is just so hard. It really hurts sometimes. Why can't I be straight forward for some things? Dam, haha. Because it'll hurt me and the others ohohoh okay. Am i like talking to myself? Haix, I'm a loner *music starts playing CN Blue Loner.* ok, this is really crap.
ok good night
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